Jesus, You're all I need;

Friday, August 8, 2008

Founders' Day- a blast.

I loved every single moment of it, seeing friends all around, fairsians.

First up was the service in fairfield's very own field.

met hisyam after class, went there together. We ended up watching the boys play soccer in the parade square (just like old times!!!) and he told me a lot of stories and made me laugh a lot. hahaha. this boy really cracks me up (:

The service began, and the class boys were just being their usual silly and funny selves.

The theme song was improvised, with echos and the real 'shouts'! hahaha laughed alot.

Celebrated shaun wai's eighteenth birthday, you're finally legal! (hisyam i still dont get why this is dirty-minded)

Oh yes, and when the rest of the school was singing the birthday song to fairfield, they/we were singing to shaun instead. Man, I love this bunch of people.

And monday was the big thing, the dinner at swissotel.

Left school really early, about eleven plus to go home to rest awhile

Before meeting jo and sop at wisma area to do hair

Amy joined us later, and when our hair was all done we cabbed over to my place, for makeup and changing up.

We were so careful with our hair, jo didnt even dare to move her head much!!

Oh we ended up being a little late, but who cares we didnt miss much anyway (:

There was some problem with our seatings, the girls had to split or something, and no one really wanted to sit with strangers (more or less).

But anyway, this was our table- the fun-est people ever!

Cheers to the model class of 2006/2007!

the cheekiest boy i ever knew!!!

I love this class so much, I miss everything that we've been through together. And it gets a little tough sometimes without you guys by my side. But I know that we're only gonna keep getting closer as the years go by, I love you so much.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

All things work for our good, though sometimes we dont see how they could
Trials that break our hearts in two, sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us,His ways are not ours
So when your pathway grows dim and you just dont see Him
Remember you're never alone

Father, I really dont know what your plans are. I still dont understand, up till now, why you had to take away something so precious. And why did things have to happen this way? Its been told to me time and again that You're in charge always, but y'know I dont feel that way all the time. It feels as if I'm bearing all this alone, and Im about to collapse soon. maybe its because Im not seeking You enough, and I cant truly let go of it all. It gets really tough sometimes, and i really wanna give in and give up. There're times when I just feel like crying and never ever have to face the world again, because the feeling's just too overwhelming. I dont know what to do , Jesus. I want to be happy where I am, I want You to be in charge. But I cant even start to explain how difficult everything is getting. Im really quite amazed at how many things can go wrong at one time. I want to give it all to You, so I wont need to worry about anything else ever again. But can I do it? Will I be able to let go of all my concerns, and trust in a God who's absolutely bigger and all-powerful? I'm still reminding myself that Your ways are greater than mine, and Your thoughts than mine. I'm still learning to trust that You actually allowed things to happen for Your own divine reason. Even though i cannot understand at all, Father, teach me and help me to trust You. I want to walk with You in my heart, Lord Jesus. please be real to me. I need You, and I love you so. Amen

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Come and make my heart Your home
Come and be everything I am and all I know

its ridiculous, I'm telling you.
If you really believe so, I cant really do much right?
Just stop using it as a common topic.
I'm not deaf nor dumb, my five senses function perfectly well.
So please quit being that immature young [and ridiculous] thing you often are.
Who knows what you're thinking, and I'm not gonna let it bother me.
More important and real things to think/worry about.

Monday, July 7, 2008

hello, please help me to do this survey. I really need the results for my pw. I dont even know for sure what this whole subject's about. ugh. But please be a sport and do it, for me. thanks(:
Its not really complete, but i guess i could do with whatever i have first.

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You say You care about every single thing in my life. So please show Yourself to me, Father. I really need You, so much.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

yesterday was fairfield's funfair, and reach service in church.

was really really good, compared to the past week.

Monday- no school, so it was alright

Tuesday- school as usual, got spotted for my so-called dyed hair, by discipline mistress who turns out to be my new bio prac tutor.

Wednesday- swim heats at sports school, some stupid misunderstanding spoilt stuff

Thursday- got the timing of heats wrongly, had to rush and cab down, blew fifteen on cabfare.

Friday- (what a way to end the school week)

1. A level chinese oral

2. Dropped my phone into the toilet bowl (clean, thankfully!)

3. Failed math terms really badly.

4. Found out how horrible some of my techers are.

wow, what a week. even charisse and her friend suyee agrees this week was filled with unlucky-ness. when i told charisse about my phone incident, she texted " why do all the weird/funny things happen to you!" yes im wondering too. I never used to have such things happen before. haha, oh well next time if I ever look back on this week maybe I'll laugh my head off.

alright, time for a few pictures(:

This week might just not be so bad.
Monday's a holiday, we're excused from school tuesday and wednesday, to go down to support our swim team in finals(:

When you dont understand, when you dont see His plan, when you cant trace his hand, trust His heart

Thursday, July 3, 2008

i havent posted in ages. Im probably too lazy, and my thoughts go faster than I can actually type, so I dont really talk about everything thats on my mind.
This week's a really stressful week.
swim heats on wednesday and thursday, chinese A level oral on friday.
I cant believe oral's here again so quickly. It only feels like a while ago that we were taking our O level oral, and I can still remember how freaked out I was, and how sure I was that I messed the entire thing up. But God works in amazing ways, I got my distintinction. How that happened I have absolutely no clue. Wish me luck and pray for me, I just hope I can form all my sentences properly in un-broken chinese. (:

The recent june holidays were fulfilling, not in the sense t hat I caught up with much work academically, but more of socially and spiritually. The mission trip was a blast, thats all I can say. Its difficult to describe it, but those who went should get it- you have to experience it to understand(: I really thank God for the opportunity to go.
Catching up with friends was really worthwhile- from ac, church, fairfield, and me beloved class of 4B'07. Something to look forward to- fairfield funfair this saturday!! Which means I get to see them again. Seriously, I dont know what kinda hold they have on me, but everytime I see them I smile and enjoy every minute of it, not worrying a single bit. I guess thats the effect God-sent friends have on you(:

Went out with Joanna quite a bit recently, that girl's my favourite. :D

I dont know what I'd do without her, haha.

Shopped a lot during the hols, zara just started sale and i got a top from there. A lot of other nice dresses but, another time perhaps.

Terms were over last week, and I dont know what results to expect. Whatever it may be, I'll learn to give thanks! Math is definitely a goner for me, haha.

Alright, chinese oral preparations to be done soon. Wish me luck.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

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thats all i can say. today was a bad bad day.
I still cant quite believe you're actually going, rachel. I'm gonna miss you like crazy. you're letter to me, I'll always treasure. I'm already missing your laughter soooo much, I really cant tell you how much. I never thought I'd be so affected by it either. There's just so much I wanna say to you, to tell you how much I love you, how much I'm already missing every single part of you, how miserable I feel without you to help me get through the days in school. how we'd always compare how much we each hate school, some teachers. how either one of us would say something out of the blue, or when we just talk about anything, and especially how we'd burst into laughter so loudly till the people around turn to look.I wanna tell you how much you mean to me, that I keep on crying nonstop. Almost everything I see reminds me of you somehow, and the times we shared together. Chinese and Lit lessons, when we always sat together. how we'd laugh our heads off over things only we find funny, and even just having you as company was nice. I wanna tell you that you never came between us or whatever, I loved you as my wonderful friend. I treasured you greatly, and I'd give anything for you to stay on here with me.

But I cant tell you all this, I want you to be happy. Happy in your new life over there, I know you feel bad for doing this already. So I cant bear to make you more sad or upset, by letting you read all this. You've been such a great friend, I'm so reluctantly letting go. I feel hurt every single time I just think about it, which is not very rare. i know you're happy with your decision, I can tell. So I cant, I have to be more sensitive. No matter how much I wanna tell you all this, I have to force it back inside. You deserve to be happy, you had the right to this decision. So help me, Lord. I just know that the journey ahead, for both of us, is gonna be so tough. There're gonna be so many trials, so many times where we just feel like giving up, not to try anymore. Times when we feel so tired, we dont wanna try anymore. You give us the strength, Lord, to get through it all. Even when we are on the verge of giving up, because it seems way too hard, You become our motivation, Lord, please? Give me the strength and courage to face it all, Lord. Even though all seems lost. Please help me get through all of this, Lord, through Your strength.